Friday, April 15, 2011

Attitude Problem???!!!

I heard the term 'Attitude problem' for the first time in my first year at college...
And that too directed at me... Wondered for long what that could mean... When I asked one of my friends, she laughed and said I was nowhere close to having an attitude problem and just asked me to chuck the matter...
Now, in my final year, it comes back to haunt me... this time in a much worse way... someone having an attitude problem with me...!!!
My first request: plz someone tell me what does this attitude problem mean?
Next, before you conclude that someone doesn't understand your view point, first try explaining it to them..!
Thirdly, don't give all fancy dialogues one day that friendships will continue forever and some other day blatantly declare that its over... before you make huge statements like the former, make sure you really will mean them forever... lest you hurt someone...(inevitably that's what you end up doing)...
Finally, let me make a disclaimer: This post is not intended for anyone.. its just an outlet for myself...(Apparently, I'm supposed to be the one always hurting ppl!!!)

Saturday, April 9, 2011

One Last Wish...

Every time you wish me a longer life,
Every time you wish me dead,
Only thing that has been true,
Am already dying…
As talks of 2012 loom,
The world worrying about an impending doom,
I smile because I just know,
Am already dying…
Caught in science’s shackles,
People talk about God’s miracles,
I feel the cunning grasp of death’s tentacles,
Am already dying…
A friend to laugh with,
A friend to scold,
A friend to shed a tear, once I floor,
Am already dying…
The moments, minutes, hours and days,
Our conversations taking shape,
Etched in my mind, I shall take,
Those memories with me to the rake,
Am already dying…
Adieu, I bid,
Ask for one last wish,
In my heart you shall be,
Until fire reigns its spree,
But your heart shall live,
Let not sorrow claim its kill,
Burden not the poor heart,
Memories of a rotten past,
Live a life that compensates,
For what I missed; contemplate,
The small heart with its alcove,
Make it a tremendous treasure trove,
Hear from me, “Life’s worth Living”,
It owes you not a single farthing,
Live it down, right to the last,
No regrets; Alas!
Am already dying…

Friday, April 8, 2011

Solitude

You leave me pondering in the dark,
Alone I ruminate over,
The few moments together,
You and me…
The world around me is abuzz,
With activities several,
Energy up thrust,
Passions ablaze,
Rivalry savage,
Warmth gone,
I stay cold,
Only embers of once a great fire remain,
You and me…
I resign from this myriad world,
Retire into my cold haven,
Meaningless even the minimum activities seem,
Without your presence,
To promote liveliness,
Life blurs,
Into hazy horizons,
Framed by the shades of memories,
Like ghosts from the past,
Outlining the sunset over my life,
Twilight turns to dusk,
I ponder alone into the dark…